Different Dances

yellow moons

over a gridded net of manufactured houses

cast on an unwilling girl

as she wanders to and fro

searching,

aimlessly


she walks barefoot

dances on the midday concrete

sprints on the dusk

and all the while she is wanting something more

searching,

aimlessly


a different moon in bed

blue-light held in front of her face

scanning for memes, meaning, memory

anything to fill the tumbling hours

searching,

aimlessly


too afraid to live boldly

black dog barking

yellow cat screaming

she wants to run, freely

searching,

aimlessly


be young!

they tell her

live fully!

they tell her

searching,

aimlessly


she’s forgotten how

but wants to dance

under the crying stars

wants to pluck their tears from the sky

searching,

aimlessly


and above all,

she wants to be free

free to roam with others

free to be herself

searching,

aimlessly


one step at a time,

she tells herself

freedom comes with work

she reminds herself

one day you will be yourself, completely

and you are not alone,

like you might think,

but there are others who would dance with you

if you would just let them.


- Kaitlyn Fa


Cover photo source: Federica Dall'Orso http://www.fubiz.net/2015/08/28/black-and-white-dancers-portraits-in-new-york-city/