yellow moons
over a gridded net of manufactured houses
cast on an unwilling girl
as she wanders to and fro
searching,
aimlessly
she walks barefoot
dances on the midday concrete
sprints on the dusk
and all the while she is wanting something more
searching,
aimlessly
a different moon in bed
blue-light held in front of her face
scanning for memes, meaning, memory
anything to fill the tumbling hours
searching,
aimlessly
too afraid to live boldly
black dog barking
yellow cat screaming
she wants to run, freely
searching,
aimlessly
be young!
they tell her
live fully!
they tell her
searching,
aimlessly
she’s forgotten how
but wants to dance
under the crying stars
wants to pluck their tears from the sky
searching,
aimlessly
and above all,
she wants to be free
free to roam with others
free to be herself
searching,
aimlessly
one step at a time,
she tells herself
freedom comes with work
she reminds herself
one day you will be yourself, completely
and you are not alone,
like you might think,
but there are others who would dance with you
if you would just let them.
Cover photo source: Federica Dall'Orso http://www.fubiz.net/2015/08/28/black-and-white-dancers-portraits-in-new-york-city/