Why I rejected Gabriel last night

He’s wonderful. Gabriel

is tall, nearing 6’2”

Athletic; varsity soccer

Stanford; star student

with big dreams and

has himself figured out;

Chases purpose

Thinks open-mindedly and feels deeply

Understands me well and

we have so much in common.

Is kind and caring and

funny and

perfect on paper

He learned love from

his affectionate family

After all,

people say I’ve won the lottery

I know I have:

Mature; great influence

Strong, noble values

Honest and genuine

Husband material

Within reach

A real-life dream–

I was reminded last night

when I saw him again

And you, who

is not nearly as tall,

Athletic, but not to his extent

Community college attendee

with no ambitious plans and

not driven to figure it out;

Chases pleasure

Harbors hatred and suppresses emotion

Doesn't get me and

we’re just too different.

Is kind and caring and

funny but

no good for me

You learned love from

your divorced parents

After everything,

people expect me to resent you

I know I should:

Immature; drove me downward

Unhealthy values

Dishonest and inconsiderate

A long way to go

Distant and…

do you still think about me?

I don’t remember you well–

it’s been so long

Countless things to love about Gabriel, but

Gabriel deserves a girl who loves him.

I don’t love him.

the philosopher Zizek said,

if you have reasons to love someone,

you do not love them.

Real love transcends reason, and I avoid fake things

I have every reason to love Gabriel

but for no reason,

I love you

Editors: Chris F. Nicole O. Nadine R.

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