He’s wonderful. Gabriel
is tall, nearing 6’2”
Athletic; varsity soccer
Stanford; star student
with big dreams and
has himself figured out;
Chases purpose
Thinks open-mindedly and feels deeply
Understands me well and
we have so much in common.
Is kind and caring and
funny and
perfect on paper
He learned love from
his affectionate family
After all,
people say I’ve won the lottery
I know I have:
Mature; great influence
Strong, noble values
Honest and genuine
Husband material
Within reach
A real-life dream–
I was reminded last night
when I saw him again
And you, who
is not nearly as tall,
Athletic, but not to his extent
Community college attendee
with no ambitious plans and
not driven to figure it out;
Chases pleasure
Harbors hatred and suppresses emotion
Doesn't get me and
we’re just too different.
Is kind and caring and
funny but
no good for me
You learned love from
your divorced parents
After everything,
people expect me to resent you
I know I should:
Immature; drove me downward
Unhealthy values
Dishonest and inconsiderate
A long way to go
Distant and…
do you still think about me?
I don’t remember you well–
it’s been so long
Countless things to love about Gabriel, but
Gabriel deserves a girl who loves him.
I don’t love him.
the philosopher Zizek said,
if you have reasons to love someone,
you do not love them.
Real love transcends reason, and I avoid fake things
I have every reason to love Gabriel
but for no reason,
I love you
Editors: Chris F. Nicole O. Nadine R.
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